Choosing Heaven

This is from the days not so long ago, when I was too shy to take credit for my own quotes. I kept my name as small as possible. 
This is from the book I was going to finish the week Jack came home from surgery. He ultimately died and I was thrown a curve ball that week that changed my life. 
But I still need to finish this book. It's called "It's All About You".  


Did He Know I Loved Him?

Dear Jack, 
It's 4am and I cant sleep. I really want to know what my boy went through at the end, not that it will help or maybe it would. I just want to hear that he didn't suffer too much. 

I Love You and I Know You Love Me Too

Dear One,
The fact that you were there with him offsets any suffering your boy may have had. Being surrounded by love always alleviates pain and suffering. When we love, our endorphins kick in. Endorphins are the natural antidepressants that are created in the natural pharmacy in our bodies. When we are loved, we are more immune to feeling the effects of discomfort. Some of us choose to die alone. Some of choose to be at the side of the one who loved us. Just like people, animals are all different and they have the ability to make some choices such as this. 

His suffering was short-lived compared to the life he lived and loved with you....and all of that life is but a blink of an eye when compared to the eternal life he is living now. It was just a tiny moment in time. You'll see when you are together again with him. You'll see how it all works and you will look back and say how foolish you were to worry so. But worry, it's the human condition. It cannot be helped. Worry is your teacher. 

Did he know you loved him?  The answer to this is the non-prescription drug that brings peace to everyone. Ahhhh, to know they were loved! We all need to know we are loved and we need to believe that those we love the most know that they are loved in return. Love is the drug. Love is the key. Love is the answer. Love is the question. Love is the secret. Love is everything. While you continue to suffer, he has moved beyond suffering. He is not suffering now. When we enter Rainbow Bridge ---and ultimately Heaven--- any of the "bad" memories leave us. The physical scars and feelings heal instantaneously and if he hurts, it's only because you are still unhappy. 

The best thing you can do, now that you know he knows you love him, is to love yourself. Love yourself so much that there is no room for guilt and second-guessing.  


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Questions in a Rose-Colored World

What happens when you remove
Your rose-colored glasses
And realize that I am just
A person with imperfections
Just like everyone else?

Will you leave me then?

By leaving you first 
Am I shielding myself
From that possibility?

By leaving you first
Do I deprive myself of knowing
The answer? 



Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart, so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. It pulls up the rotten roots, so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place. 


Rite of Passage

Life is all about the experience
And the expression
Of feeling.

It keeps dishing out opportunities
To feel
Good and bad.

When that happens
We either come through
Our rite of passage,
Or we smother the opportunity,
Burying it with our chosen painkillers;
Anxiety, addiction, depression....

Push the feelings away
And maybe one day
You won't feel anything.
You can become an inanimate object.

And life will still keep dishing it out
In the hopes that one day
You will learn
What it hopes to teach you.

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