Thursday, July 2, 2015

Happy Birthday Post Mortem

Today is your birthday Dad. You would have been 81. You never needed caregivers. You thought for yourself. You made your own decisions. You were never a burden to anyone at anytime. I have not posted much here because life goes on and I don't want this page to become my shrine to you because I know the day will come and I will stop grieving. I will stop posting. And I will then start feeling guilty because I am healing. It's the human condition, the guilt. So I want to minimize it if I can.

I want to start focusing on your life instead of your death. The last time I saw you, you said "I need to go back and visit Wilson one more time." That's how I know where I need to lay you to rest. This Fall I will drive back to NY and scatter your ashes at Sunset Island in Wilson...the place of our most happy young family memories.

Happy Birthday Dad. I miss you.

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